perceptive projection

Married guy is coming  into town for the purpose of seeing me.

I refused flat out.

I had a feeling that I would break down in front of me and knowing him, he'd offer to help and also would make clear his offer is still standing, the offer of marrying me.

I am very much afraid that this time, I don't have the will power enough to say no.

But I don't love him. And if I say yes, a wife and a daughter would bite the dust. I can't do that. I don't want to be in the position where the offer is tempting enough that I would forget about them and think of my own selfishness of finding an oasis.  

But he can do that. He can lure me. Him as a whole package is seductive. His personality is of such that would be able to absorb all of my problems and neutralized it in him. And he is wealthy enough that my financial problem would look miniscule for him. And although I don't love him, I like him a lot. We've always such a good time together. I know he can make me happy. 

The whole thing makes it dangerous. 

So, the answer is no. No, I won't meet him.