perceptive projection

When he said he is so tired of fighting, too. He is also stressed out by the whole thing. He doesn't want to fight. He just wants to be together with me. That he needs me. That he misses me.

Something inside me aches. The sorrow in his voice makes me wants to weep. 

I am chinese woman who came from a very traditional chinese family, raised in a muslim country and grew into adulthood in America. That alone is complicated and can give anyone psychological issues. And then to top it all of, like that is not enough, I fell in love with a European man. And in between falling in love with him, my family is falling to hard times in which required me to go to unimaginable lengths to help them.

More than anyone, including him, I realize how trying it can be to have me as a girlfriend in my current situation. It is more than enough to drive anyone crazy with frustration, testing a man his true mettle. He has passed with flying colours so far. Yet, he is kept being tested. 

That he is tired of it, I can thoroughly understand. 

Not only I get hurt in this situation. He does, too. 

So. For once, I shut the world out and speak only what we both can understand. For once, I simply let my love speaks to him and nothing else.